Put your scuba gear on because Nic is gonna get deep for a minute.
Examine your life. There is an experience that you’ve had that has shaped who you are now.
For instance, I am extremely self aware. I won’t go out of my house looking less than put together at least 95% of the time. I refuse to wear sweats (unless I am in my home)…. My hair must always be picture perfect; I’ll wash it three times a week if I have to. (I’m sitting here with conditioner on right now, matter of fact.) Whenever I pass a reflection, I’m looking; mirrors, grocery store freezer section, store windows, what have you. Some may confuse this with conceit.
Growing up, I was never the attractive girl. I had full lips back then, before it was cool. My family didn’t have a lot of money, so I was not dressed in Cross Colours (took u way, way back!) and Jordans. I was extremely skinny and always one of the tall girls.
I’d come home from school and cry in the bathroom (didn’t want Mama to see my tears… she had enough stress with four kids), and pray for God to make me beautiful like the other girls. There was even a point in my life where I was suicidal. I had the knife in my hand but lacked the nerve to follow through. No one knew any of this.
This was the old me; me growing up as a teenager. That girl no longer exists. I don’t know exactly when my confidence came, I’m just glad it finally did. And when it arrived, I had a new walk. I wanted to shout it on the mountaintops! I have the word, “Beautiful” tattooed on my upper back, as a constant reminder of what I am. I also want to let you know how highly I think of myself before you even try me.
“Don’t cry for me Argentina,” this experience shaped who I am today. It’s even what put me on to my career path. I want to help young girls who felt like me. I want to inspire them and tell them they are beautiful when no one else will tell them. I don’t want another girl to feel like I did.
Now here’s your moment of truth. Think back, what’s an experience that’s shaped how you are today?