Do you talk to yourself? (there, you just did it) Have you had that talk where you’re trying to rationalize why you are in whatever type of relationship you are in with a person – strictly physical, friends not wanting more, friends but trying to establish more, etc.? You ever get so deep in this “conversation” that you start becoming a psychologist of sorts?
Recent Self-Diagnosis – I get what I deserve/I don’t want what I don’t think I deserve (also seen here: https://singlesisterspeak.wordpress.com/2008/12/16/the-great-or-not-self-sabotage/)
What I Want:
Hitler – Disciplined. You can find him in one of five places when not with me: gym, home, school, work, friends’ house talking smack. The discipline is not the part of him I deem Hitler-ish, it’s his dictator way of talking to me. “Give me a kiss.” “I’ll talk to you later (click)” which is said after I’ve asked the 4th or 5th of a series of questions. “I’m not going (insert place we never discussed him taking me to prior to me getting in the car). We’re going home.” *sigh* Be still my heart…lol. At first the dictatorship was sexy to me…yea, I LIKE a man that speaks with authority and puts me in my place from time to time (
f*ck that feminist bullsh*t). Buuuut, then I started thinking more about it…I have a son and I don’t want him to think that’s it’s OK to talk to people (especially anyone he’s dating) in that manner. And then I started diagnosing. Wait I ALREADY TALK TO SOME PEOPLE THAT WAY. So, was I gonna tell Hitler he needs to stop talking to me like this when I wasn’t prepared to do it myself? No, but I will ask him why he does. I talk to a certain person this way because for some reason I have no respect for them. In deeper pondering, I wonder why (and when) Hitler has lost respect for me. And, is it even lack of respect for ME per say or is he just an @sshole that talks to everyone that way? End diagnosis – I deserve to be spoken to like this because I do it to other people.
What I Don’t Want:
Apparently the short answer is anyone who treats me better than I treat them or other people. *tada* Yes, there are men out there who want to give Cuzzo the world but I just don’t want them. Or get them (in past situations) and do something to ruin the relationship.
*In case of confusion, Hitler is a real person I am dating/messing/dealing with.*
Back to the aim of the post – have you self-diagnosed yourself lately? Maybe not in this particular fashion…maybe you are the jerk to someone else and wonder why they are your friend/companion….maybe you keep making certain decisions in life and have pondered why. And it doesn’t have to be a negative diagnosis.
- I am so OVER leggings!!! I feel like women have gotten lazy in getting dressed now…it’s the new sweatpants. Men – if you see a woman in leggings, not matter how fat her booty looks in them, do not talk to her…she is lazy and probably has a dirty house.
- I am so INTO bondage looking sandals. They are what’s up this season. I plan to buy several pair and rock the hell out of them. Is it possible to have a foot fetish of your own feet?