In “I Know,” Jay Z starts out: She wants that old thing back….”
Have you ever been in a situation where no matter how many times you left it- you always come back? This can be dealing with a few things, whether it’s a relationship, GOD, school, whatev.
I had to check myself last week because at one point I was deep into GOD and bible study and reading my bible and I feel like I’ve waned. I’ve missed two Sundays of church, my potty mouth is creeping back up and I’ve been sitting on the phone when I need to be cranking that bible out. I don’t want to be one of those Christians that only call on GOD when something is going wrong… or just kinda keeps Him on the shelf in case of emergency. So that said, I’m trying to do better again.
I had this guy that I was crazy cool with… he was the Dre to my Syd (Brown Sugar)… He was my ace boon. One day, we decided to ruin it all and try a relationship situation out. MISTAKE!!!!!! (why isn’t there a rewind button in life?)
In short, it didn’t work. I wanted more… I wanted a title. He “wasn’t ready.” He wasn’t financially capable, and I often look out for my man (picking up things if I see them out, bringing him lunch to work), so I started to feel like I was trickin’.
Story even shorter… I decided to walk away. Now, approximately every six months, I get a call from him trying to reminisce… the last one was just the day before Valentine’s Day, screaming we are supposed to be together. Kids, he wants that old thing back (And I really can’t blame him. Have u seen me? JOKING). Thing is, now we can’t even be friends anymore… and I miss my friend- so I guess I want a little of that old thing back too.
Is this post even making sense? I feel like I started in Atlanta but somehow ended up in Arizona… ANYWHO, before I “Dig A Hole” any deeper, I’m quitting while I’m ahead.
P.S. > This song also works for the topic today. As wack as Chingy is, I think it’s a hot record.
So people, tell me about your situations – whether they are healthy or not.