I don’t know if I know anything about love. I recall the first time I said it. I was around twenty years old and the guy was my first boyfriend, who I eventually forfeited my virginity to.
We were lying on a blanket in a big open park, looking at the stars. I remember blurting it out but I cannot recall what triggered it. I remember him not saying it back right away, which I was okay with. (He ended up saying it back later that night though.) During the time we were together, I felt like this was for real. We planned our future together, he designed our dream home. We were going to wait until marriage to have our first sexual encounter (but it was eventually lost while we were watching “Life.” How romantic! Lol).
Imagine my surprise when one day out of the blue, he disappeared for over a month. He called me one day and broke up with me. It took me three years to finally get over him and it wasn’t until years later (just October of 2008) that we even crossed paths again. He told me that he was scared of loving me and didn’t know how to handle those emotions – and he apologized. I told him that was water under the bridge and that was that. Hey, everyone has to experience at least one heart break in life, right?
But am I confused, did I really love him? Seems like you should know what made you tell someone you love them.
Mr. Threesome (which I’ve talked about many times on here) told me he loved me out the blue one day – completely random. I said it back but I can’t say that I was in love.
I love easy- shoot, I have love for the sandwich makers at Calistoga. I am an extremely caring person (although I may not always seem to wear that on my sleeve), and to me- if I care what happens to you, I must love you.
I know there is a difference between loving someone and being in love with them. How do you know when have entered the realm of the latter? Does the world really stop? Do you hear a voice telling you?
Does it feel like this:
Is there love at first sight? Is there a time limit on love? How soon do you feel it? What if you love someone right away? When do you tell them? What if they think you are a psycho?
Does love ever run out? Is love enough to build a relationship on?
I know I’m asking a ton of questions but I am clueless about this thing.
Please enlighten me and share your experiences.